Assalamualaikum guys. Today, is the saddest day in my life. No one knows what I'm feeling right now cause they aren't me. If they are me, they will feel the suffer what I've felt today. I'm a dirty girl, I'm PROSTITUTE! That's what they think about me. Today I had cried a lot, cause the way that they were looking at me was weird. It was like they were looking a disgusting woman and a woman who doesn't have dignity. I'm just an ordinary girl who searching for a better place to carry on with her life. I was very ashamed. Today should be the happiest day in my life cause we should said goodbye to each other but it was twisted. I cried, I prayed to GOD to give me his blessing. I have two choices. Carry on my life or SUICIDE? I know it is a sinful action. But, these two guys gave me the choices. They mocked me, they said many dirty words towards me. I can't stand it any longer. I was stressed. My head is full of these two guys' words. "Penari tiang" "Pelacur".These words was came out from their mouth. I want to tell my mom, but I can't. I'm shy. I'm crying right now. I have no friends to complain my problems here. They were gone. I have to face it my self. I don't have the enthusiasm to face it. I'm stupid. I think I wanna suicide. I have nothing to live for. I was born to be contemptible and be mock. Am I? But I know I have to be strong. I've been humiliated so many times and I can't stand it anymore. Izzat & Shahidan. If you are reading this, I've forgive you. And please, forgive me. Even tough you are the reason  why I'm writing this, but I wanna thank you guys cause make me feel this horrible sentiment. It is SUICIDE. If you guys were hoping that my dead body is infront of you, right now. Just wait. Cause, maybe this short period, my body will appear infront of you. One day. You hoped that right? Thanks, assalamualaikum and GOODBYE =)

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